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I was scrolling through my contacts list on my phone today and my finger slipped right on your name. it pulled up your name and number and asked if i wanted to call you.

that unnerved the hell out of me.

its like, you are still stored in my phone, but you are not even here anymore. how can that be?

they say you can't control grief. i think thats becoming very apparent.

like today. for the first time since you passed, i was able to tell someone that i lost you without breaking down into tears. i was very proud of myself. it was actually quite easy to talk about you.

but then, when i see your name in my contact list i break down.

you definitely can't control grief.

of that i'm positive.